After that, when I started taking the real thing, I started to experience that amazing feeling so many bottoms had described. I started with a small dildo and a set of plugs the plugs in particular helped me get used to the feeling of having something inside me like that, helped me get to know my anatomy a bit better and know how long it took me to loosen up, how much I could have inserted, etc. Hearing other bottoms describe how amazing it was, I wanted to know what that was like, so I bought some toys and started playing around that way.
It felt so foreign, awkward, and uncomfortable. One of these reasons was that I could never enjoy physical feeling of bottoming. When I first started having sex, I was exclusively a top for a variety of reasons. If it's with a romantic partner, someone for whom I have feelings, our emotional intimacy manifesting as him being inside me is just about the sexist thing I've ever experienced mentally.
If it's casual sex, the thought of having another guy use me in that way for his pleasure sends me through the roof. For me, the best part of bottoming is the psychological component. I agree with pretty much all the comments! It's an incredible feeling physically, but the type of pleasure is hard to describe.
